7.31.06

End of the month. Here we go. Final stretch. Last chance.

Hopefully this can make some sense to you. It's hard to explain.

Arright. I'm a perfectionist. Maybe lots of other people are. I'm not saying necessarily everything is perfect for me, because yeah. There's of course no such thing. Or it has different perspectives. Whatever. Perfect is just a difficult thing to reach. So we all try to make everything perfect and achive that level of happiness where nothing is wrong. I personally like to have every aspect or anything im involved in to be in the best condition possible. Health, education, relationships, all that good stuff. It's good to have them as perfect as possible. So as someone who likes to keep everything in tip top shape, it's bad for something not being able to have it to a level that satisifes you. Hard to put to words. Um. Well all i'm trying to say is it's hard to fill a swimming pool when you're in the middle of the desert. You feel empty and lost, but just keep searching. You'll find it eventually and restore that completeness. But for some people, they just have to keep looking more than others. And maybe some people just aren't meant to have a swimming pool.